I am really getting sick of the battle lines being drawn needlessly. The elitism and petty behavior. It's why I didn't involve myself with these "bike" people to begin with. Sure, my judgement was clouded for a bit, but I'm out of all that now. I'm out of the negative haze, and back to a place where all I want is to be happy, for others to be happy, and for everyone to enjoy each other's company. Sounds lame, and it is, but it's really all I can do at the moment to keep it all together.
I could be mean, and rude. Petty and childish. I have been all of those things. I've said some things I regret, made comments in the heat of the moment that I wish I could take back. Who hasn't? Though these scene politics are above and beyond anything I've ever dealt with. I just want a close knit group of friends who enjoy the same things I do, and don't feel the need to cut others down just to make themselves feel better. And I'm well on my way to achieving that.
So why do I feel like giving up? Why do I feel like selling my bike and never looking back? Why do I feel like the "community" is hopeless and self defeating? Why do I feel like every stride of advancement is met with apprehension and negativity?
Could it be, because they are?
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aww come to Tampa, we can circle the island (Davis) nobody seems to care or try here... =)
Hey Punkin. I think all hobby communities have their elitist members to some extent. Whether it's biking, knitting or golfing there's always someone who thinks that you have to be special to be part of the clicque. Don't let the bastids get you down and keep doing what you love. I love and miss you very much. Pick up a phone and call and aunt, wouldja? Smooches.
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